Enjoying some down time this weekend…
If you follow the Mamademics FB page then you know that last week marked my return to the front of the classroom. I think I mentioned this before, but right now I teach 2 sections per semester of freshman English at the university where I’m working on my PhD. The school year started this past Monday, which means my days of only being a mommy all day are over. Our department is pretty good about working with the parents in the program, so my teaching schedule only requires me to be on campus two evenings a week. I’m usually away from Baby S 4-5 hours on those days, and he spends the time with Mr. S and his aunt. Despite him being with family, this transition has been hard on both of us.
I never thought I would be the mom who cries at the thought of leaving their child to go to work, but I am. The first day I found myself randomly crying throughout the day. I’m sure Baby S thought I had lost my mind, but he seemed to enjoy all the extra cuddles and kisses he received randomly. When Mr. S came home for lunch he looked at me and knew that I was feeling sad. He reminded me that Baby S would be fine and that I’ve been teaching for a few years now, so I had no reason to be nervous. As usual he made me feel better and I managed to get through the rest of the day with very few tears.
By the time I reached campus and stood in front of my classroom, my nerves had settled and I was ready to go. It felt weird to be unattached for that long, but great to be doing what I love again. I’m not ready to be on campus full time again, but I’m enjoying the few hours a week when I can be something other Baby S’s mommy. I’m sure Baby S feels differently, but I’ll save the adjustment discussion for a later post.
